some days...

no doubt about it - some days are worse than others...

some days, the feelings of inadequacy are heightened to the extreme. some days its hard to see your shadow on the sidewalk, feeling the emptiness of that shell, expecting it to fall in a heap now that the backbone has been stripped by her cheating and her falling out of love...

some days, the weight of life seems too much to bear. some days, the decisions to make are overwhelming, the hope that propels the heart slowing to a creep...

some days, you wonder how life could have taken these turns. this wasn't the way it was supposed to be...

some days the light seems to not shine, only reflections of what was or what could be glancing off the windows to yesterday and tomorrow...

on those days, perhaps unrealistic expectations are laid on those parts of life that are real and good. the comfort of a smile from a best friend. the late night phone call with the one true love. the excited sprint of the perfect little boy. these are the things that i crave - that my deflated soul needs - on days like today...